ahhh, in last few days i’ve got headache, heart attack, like a desperate person damn. i need my blog just for share every blue story on my head..since Thursday and when i was starting to touch my trashshit,only stupid damn feel full fill my head and my soul.hahaha.
yeah it’s like i’m getting more crazy than before.but i still can handle it.yeah so greatfull,not like before.i need someone else just for share my story 
but i just share my feel only on digital world like this.like talk with my self on mirror.
i need laugh,then i’ll turn on television search a funny and silly program and laugh alone.yeah still alone. so what?
maybe that’s true i dont have a friend, maybe that’s true i face out this alone, and i dont wanna be shy anymore to loud this. because i know i’, alone now. sorry my friend, i must tell this, but after i read cici’s story, i realized that she is right.
“kita ga sendirian hidup di dunia ini, tp untuk meraih impian kita, kita mesti usaha sendiri”
yeah i must catch my dream alone. but i still have You God, right? i must finished my study in this term.may You give me your permit?i hope 
thank God, u still beside me, through my trash life
